An unfinished one.

I was freezed when we were walking on that day and you said I love you.

Suddenly everything stopped for me.

Even We were passing by the traffic but no honking nor the shops or the people were able to pass their words through my ears looked like your 3 magical words really had some magic in them.

But i was blown away when you said 

That you were just practising how you gonna propose the love of your life.

At that given point of time everything stopped.

For the first time happiness and saddness wrap me over under them at the same point.

It felt like today was the most special day of my life but somebody has took the right over it and i just stood there seeing it walk away.

I was listening all of your stories that for how long you wanted to tell me this, how you fell for her and you asking me to help you in organising the proposal night but frankly speaking it all just went over my head.

Atlast you asked me if i was happy for you?

I hoped you asked if i was happy for myself

But somewhere i knew that this was coming and i already had plans in my head that how will i react but at that very moment everything failed. No matter what i thought i could not react. It felt that someone has put a tape over my mouth and knots over my hands and legs and i am just told to stay silent.

I know i was not ditched by you but trust me it was way more hurtful than that.

I was happy to see you happy but was sad because i was not the reason behind you blushing.

The day i was waiting was just in front of my eyes,

The white curtains, the photographs, the candlelight dinner, favourite music playing at the back everything was perfect but none of it contained me.

In the pictures swinging with the breeze there was you and her ,the candles you lit up was showing a bright future of yours but with her, the song you played was for her.

Trust me i promised myself to not fall for you again but the time you stepped in with your newly brought shirt i fell in love again, but this time your hands were not there anymore to hold my heart and it broke into thousand and thousands of pieces just not get fixed again. 

And there you were with her planning your perfect life and promising each other of a happy life.

And i just stood there,

Not saying a word but smiling. And that was the second time when the happiness and saddness wrapped me over in the blanket together.

~From the one who will always remain yours!